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You Just Wouldn’t Understand (The Liar’s Disease II)

Addicts lie because of the shame. But there’s another reason for all the sneaking around. Mood music for this post: John Lennon’s “Cold Turkey,” as covered by Cheap Trick: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5e04OBJzbvc&hl=en_US&fs=1&] My boredom-induced brush with bad behavior Saturday night led to a conversation with Erin about the things I used to do when I was deep …

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The Liar’s Disease

Truth: People who engage in addictive behavior lie all the time. Mood music: You might remember a few years back when the author James Frey wrote  A Million Little Pieces; his memoir on life as a 23-year-old alcoholic and drug abuser and his rehab in a Twelve-step program. The credibility of the book was eventually …

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It’s a Disease, Not a Choice: Part 2

The Sunday night step study meeting I wrote about yesterday gave me more to think about than I could cram into one post. Another thing that stuck with me is how society continues to mistake addiction for choice. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cECTX3mPu1o&fs=1&hl=en_US&rel=0] I’ve tackled this subject many times in this blog. In the first “It’s a …

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Dirt Bag

The author admits he’s not a very good person when he lets the demons out. Mood music for this post: “A Rat Like Me” by Motley Crue: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CgiMffbYz1c&hl=en_US&fs=1&] A liar. A hater. Thinking you’re better than other people. These actions describe me pretty well. Not so much today, Thank God. But when the addictions are …

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An OCD Diaries Primer

A collection of posts that form the back story of this blog. Mood music: [spotify:track:19n9s9SfnLtwPEODqk8KCT] The Long History of OCD An OCD Christmas. The first entry, where I give an overview of how I got to crazy and found my way to sane. The Bad Pill Kept Me from the Good Pill. How the drug …

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The Final Addiction

The author on why he will shamelessly revel in his last addiction until he can’t anymore. Mood music for this post: “Dr. Feelgood” by Motley Crue: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OU1zliOPCHo&hl=en_US&fs=1&] Addiction has led to many shameful moments in my life: Binging on a $35 bag of McDonald’s junk between work and home and walking through the door in …

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Outing Myself

The author on why he chose to “out” himself despite what other people might think. Mood music: [spotify:track:1Qdnvn4XlmZANCVy3XjrQo] A couple friends have asked why I “outed myself” in this blog. Wasn’t I afraid people would blackball me at work? Don’t I worry that I’ll be defined by my struggle with OCD above all else? It’s …

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