Depression

Layne Staley, 12 Years Later

April 12, 2014 Addiction

“What’s my drug of choice? Well, what have you got?” –Layne Staley, Alice in Chains This month marks 12 years since Alice In Chains frontman Layne Staley was found dead. Mood music: Like Kurt Cobain, Staley had a big impact on me in the early 1990s. But while I identified with Cobain’s depression, I identified […]

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SecBurnout: Much Ado About Nothing?

April 11, 2014 Depression

At the SOURCE Boston security conference yesterday, I ran a session with former colleague and friend Josh Corman on the topic of security burnout. It’s an issue I’m increasingly dedicated to, given my own history with mental illness and high-profile deaths in the community. When I think of the suicide of Aaron Swartz and the accidental […]

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20 Years Ago: The Day Kurt Cobain Died

April 5, 2014 Addiction

I remember exactly where I was 20 years ago today, when I saw the news flash about Kurt Cobain’s suicide. I was lying in bed, depressed and reclusive because of frequent fear. Mood music:  I was living in Lynnfield, Mass., at the time. I had a room in the basement, just like I had in Revere. […]

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Tapping into Infosec’s Human Side

March 27, 2014 Depression

In my day job, I host the Akamai Security Podcast, an audio program about all things information security. On occasion, the topics of my profession bleed into the focus of this blog. In the following podcast, I chat with colleague Christian Ternus, a member of Akamai Infosec’s Adversarial Resilience Team. He’s been the driving force behind […]

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Seven Insights into Dealing with Depression

March 26, 2014 Depression

I got this question from a reader over the weekend, after he read my “Suicide in the Blood” post: I was just curious after reading this article: As much as I think about suicide and sometimes homicide, am I capable of carrying this out? I’m bipolar and have very serious depression also. Bipolar personality disorder […]

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Coming Down the Mountain Syndrome

March 4, 2014 Depression

It’s the Monday morning after RSA Conference 2014. I spent most of Friday sleeping and was off balance Saturday and Sunday, though I did manage to be somewhat productive. Now depression has set in. Mood music: I call this Coming Down the Mountain Syndrome, and it arrives every year like clockwork. In my industry RSA […]

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Death by Regimentation

January 30, 2014 Depression

I lead a pretty regimented life. I’ve gotten good at juggling multiple activities at once and sticking to carefully mapped out schedules. Regimens are good for me. I need specific plans for eating, exercise and career/family management. But I have to admit, all that regimentation is like a noose around my neck lately. Mood music: […]

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So Many Appointments, So Little Sanity

December 9, 2013 Depression

This year’s seasonal depression comes with a twist. It’s not necessarily something new, but it’s something I’m more aware of these days: The calendar is filled with too many appointments. Mood music: When you have kids and a busy job, a lot of running around is expected. Lately, though, it seems like running around is […]

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Infosec’s Mental Health Role Models

December 2, 2013 Depression

This weekend some friends asked about the reaction this blog has had in my industry. Truth is, I was unprepared for what followed the blog’s launch four years ago. In hindsight it makes perfect sense. Mood music: Friends asked if my information security colleagues were weirded out by the blog and whether it had an […]

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Find Yourself a Real Doctor

November 26, 2013 Addiction

Written in June, 2010. Here’s the thing: Asking me for medical advice is like asking Charles Manson how to be a pacifist. Mood music:  Somebody Get Me A DoctorVan HalenVan Halen II In the months since I started this blog, I’ve noticed something expected but weird nonetheless: People are coming to me for medical advice. […]

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