I’ve learned that in times of disorganized thought, depression and anxiety, it’s good to make lists. Want to squeeze out all your negative thoughts about people? Make a resentment list. Need help getting your diet in order? Write a daily food list, also known as a food diary. Feeling overwhelmed by work and family responsibilities? Make daily to-do lists to stay on top of it all.
Life has been pretty chaotic lately, and it feels like I’m losing my grip on everything. I know that’s not really true, but another list exercise is in order. For this one, I’ll focus on the positives.
“I’m Surviving” Checklist
- My children are healthy and thriving.
- My wife is excelling at her business, and she loves me even though I’m not always pleasant to be around.
- My father is dying, but he’s able to live in comfort for whatever time is left.
- I’m getting lots of quality time with him, which is a blessing.
- Despite the family upheaval, I’m still able to do my job do it well.
- I have legions of friends who stick by me for some reason.
- My Crohn’s Disease is in check.
- My eating is off, but I haven’t gone on any binges. I haven’t picked up a bottle, either.
- Helping my father tie up loose ends with his business is a harrowing experience, but I’m learning a lot and that’ll be to my benefit later.
- Summer is upon us, and that’s my favorite time of year.
- I have a really good therapist.
- I’m sleeping OK under the circumstances.
- I have plenty of coffee to keep me going.
- I have music.
It would appear my life is still pretty damn good, despite my perceptions lately.