The “I’m Surviving” Checklist

I’ve learned that in times of disorganized thought, depression and anxiety, it’s good to make lists. Want to squeeze out all your negative thoughts about people? Make a resentment list. Need help getting your diet in order? Write a daily food list, also known as a food diary. Feeling overwhelmed by work and family responsibilities? Make daily to-do lists to stay on top of it all.

Mood music:

https://youtu.be/oKujsRIjoOA

Life has been pretty chaotic lately, and it feels like I’m losing my grip on everything. I know that’s not really true, but another list exercise is in order. For this one, I’ll focus on the positives.

“I’m Surviving” Checklist

  • My children are healthy and thriving.
  • My wife is excelling at her business, and she loves me even though I’m not always pleasant to be around.
  • My father is dying, but he’s able to live in comfort for whatever time is left.
  • I’m getting lots of quality time with him, which is a blessing.
  • Despite the family upheaval, I’m still able to do my job do it well.
  • I have legions of friends who stick by me for some reason.
  • My Crohn’s Disease is in check.
  • My eating is off, but I haven’t gone on any binges. I haven’t picked up a bottle, either.
  • Helping my father tie up loose ends with his business is a harrowing experience, but I’m learning a lot and that’ll be to my benefit later.
  • Summer is upon us, and that’s my favorite time of year.
  • I have a really good therapist.
  • I’m sleeping OK under the circumstances.
  • I have plenty of coffee to keep me going.
  • I have music.

It would appear my life is still pretty damn good, despite my perceptions lately.

Beat-up journal labelled