April 2010

Love Thy Anger

by Bill Brenner April 30, 2010 Mental health

The author finds a use for anger. Here’s how he uses it without the evil side-effects. Mood music for this post: “The Fight Song,” by Marilyn Manson: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9GFI6Rf-IkI&hl=en_US&fs=1&] On the surface, telling people to love their anger contradicts everything this blog is about. I’m always writing about my Faith journey and overcoming mental illness and addiction, which is all about finding an inner peace. So what the hell is this about anger? In my mind,…  [Read More]

The Rewards and Risk of Service: A Cautionary Tale

by Bill Brenner April 29, 2010 Addiction

Service is a major tool of recovery. But it can also be dangerous. Mood music for this post: “Serve the Servants” by Nirvana: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jtB6gEmr6ZY&hl=en_US&fs=1&] Last night was one of service. I drove down to Salem State College to talk to graduating seniors about their portfolios and resumes. It was the least I could do, after all that college did for my career. It was energizing to talk to the students, who are full of hope…  [Read More]

Needles

by Bill Brenner April 28, 2010 Crohn's Disease

Why the author has a mild obsession with needles this morning. Mood music for this post: “The Needle and the Damage Done,” by Neil Young: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gvb65dCMjZI&hl=en_US&fs=1&] Sean had his annual physical yesterday and came home in a subdued mood after having blood drawn and a booster shot. I felt kind of bad for him, but not for long. He has it easy compared to my experience with needles. Not that I ever like to see…  [Read More]

This is Your Brain on Restlessness

by Bill Brenner April 27, 2010 Addiction

The author has hit a wall with his recovery. But it’s not what you think. Mood music for this post: “Don’t Cry” by Guns N Roses: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zRIbf6JqkNc&hl=en_US&fs=1&] I’ve moved past yesterday’s tiredness to a state of restlessness. By brain is at war with itself. One side wants to buckle down and tackle the editing and administrative tasks on the table. The other side wants to write a few more articles first. I have leftover material…  [Read More]

Somewhat Damaged

by Bill Brenner April 26, 2010 Mental disorders

Sometimes the author lives in overdrive. The result is pain. Mood music for this post: “Somewhat Damaged” by Nine Inch Nails: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WY0NEQd3_co&hl=en_US&fs=1&] Some of you might have read my post from yesterday about enjoying life in the parental and professional fast lane. Well, this morning I’m paying for it. My back aches. My head is numb and coffee isn’t doing much about that. I got a dull knifing sensation in the gut. And I’m ready…  [Read More]

Parental Overload: No Big Deal

by Bill Brenner April 25, 2010 Children's issues

Nothing like a week of screaming kids to realize OCD aint what it used to be. Mood music for this post: “Mama Weer all Crazee Now” by The Runaways: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0nKcHaQowY&hl=en_US&fs=1&] A week like the one I’ve just had would have been impossible just a couple years ago. The kids were on school vacation, the same week as Sean’s 9th birthday and some very big security events in Boston. I did a lot of speeding back…  [Read More]

How to Freak Out a Mouse with OCD!

by Bill Brenner April 23, 2010 Lighthearted

Brilliant find from my cousin Andy: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HeXTMzP7ijk&hl=en_US&fs=1&]

Newsroom Nightmare: A Sequel

by Bill Brenner April 23, 2010 Mental disorders

Another Facebook flashback strikes the author on his dirty newsroom side of the brain. Mood music for this post: “Mean Street” from Van Halen: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U2R2KXNQR1M&hl=en_US&fs=1&] I thought I was done writing about my newsroom experiences with “The Crazy-Ass Guy in the Newsroom.” But Facebook has put me back in touch with another blast from my past, so here I go again. Meet Steve Lambert, editor of The Eagle-Tribune a decade ago. He hired me as…  [Read More]

MomDay Monday – School Daze

by Bill Brenner April 22, 2010 Children's issues

Every school has its issues. Issues with teachers. Issues with other parents. Miscommunication. Problems with other students. Every school. There’s no getting around it. We’re all human. We all have failings. And a school is, after all, made up of us imperfect humans. But at what point does a school have so many issues it becomes dysfunctional? Is it when the faculty talks out of turn to your child about their parents’ divorce? Or perhaps…  [Read More]

Happy Birthday, My Sweet Boy

by Bill Brenner April 21, 2010 Children's issues

Mood music for this post: “Beautiful Boy” by John Lennon: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uldu_1-JCJE&hl=en_US&fs=1&] You entered the world on Earth Day, nine years ago. Nine years. Wow. You were graced with a beautiful Mom and a Dad with just a few kinks in him. I would always try to hide my OCD, depression and addictive behavior from you, but I wasn’t always good at that. You didn’t seem to mind. In fact, you helped me get well. We…  [Read More]